*criiiinge* So for the past year, this honestly has been the most dreaded question I have been asked over and over again. I try my hardest not to wince when asked this question. Plus it’s a constant battle between have I said enough or have i just awkwardly given “TMI” and spluttered verbal diarrhea and quite frankly, this person JUST wants to catch their train home! *hides behind laptop*
But.. I know for sure that you all have been asking the same question too and frankly, I have to just get over this bump in the road and realise that my dreams can still come true!
As some of you know, I was diagnosed with the notoriously stealth (thorn in the backside) PCOS late in the year of 2014! Most women will go a lifetime without knowing they have it, on the other hand some don’t.
After much persuasion from my family and friends, I put a stop to my daily 12 hour Shifts of Fashion styling, focused on my health and end up having to undergo an emergency Cyst removal Laparoscopy.
I literally couldn’t walk for days at a time, sometimes even lost the sensation in my legs. I learnt BIG TIME that you ALWAYS need to put your health first!
God Bless my Sisters for putting up with me.. Literally two days after the operation I went to Spain (a surprise for the middle gal, which had been planned for MONTHS) celebrating her 30th B’day. Despite me not being able to keep my food down and feeling super conscious with my huge blown up stomach and white dressing (ruining my outfits… yes i said it), they made me smile and feel confident.
This then meant that I couldn’t carry anything heavy, I couldn’t even go gym.. I seriously thought it couldn’t get any worse. Creative people love being on the go, the adrenaline, the fast paced environment. I mean on average, 70% of a stylists job is about vitality and indirect weightlifting! *LOL* #stylistlife #whatittakestobeastylist
I must admit… This experience has shown me a deeper level of how the fashion world can be rough! Despite all the hard work I have shown so many people, I have had a few clients of mine drop me like a pin and talk bad about me despite knowing my health issues.
“No, unfortunately I won’t be able to lift weight..”
“Sorry, I have to go to the doctors”
“Sorry for the delay in my response, I was in he hospital..”
.. These responses were taken VEEERY personally!
But, you know what? life goes on! Since then I have focused on getting my health back! I even got myself a personal trainer!
Yes, I get some huge setbacks every now and then, but I believe the Universe is just de-cluttering for a better path! Plus with my life shaping up for a hopeful future in Love and long-term styling career goals I decided to go back into Visual Merchandising to feed my shopping addiction… As well as keeping the lights on and filling the fridge of course!
I have been working as a Visual Merchandiser for H&M…
…whilst getting back on top of some amazing Shoots for my lovely old and new clients!
but up until this day….It’s all been worth it….
YES Styling is still my idea of a dream job which I probably do for the rest of my life *grin*
I can’t wait to see what’s next…
If you want more information about PCOS or you need support, here are some useful sites: